A Secret...

I still like embarrassing music.  This was proven yesterday when one of my good friends encouraged me to buy a CD when we were at Bull Moose, since I had said that I liked it.  I am listening to said CD right now and totally singing along <3.

ARGH!!!  I WROTE SO MUCH AND IT DISAPPEARED!  I AM NOT WRITING IT ALL OVER AGAIN....

Because I'm a Spaz (<3)

Yeahh basically.  I've been SOO busy lately it's insane.  Thus why I haven't updated here for awhile (my other reason for not updating is...you guessed it...because I'm a spaz).  So yeah first I was a CIT at a camp (=DEATH).  Though some of the guys there were really nice and we stay in touch, but otherwise, yeah, not so fun.  And then my grandpa was in the hospital for two and a half weeks with heart surgery (don't worry, he's at home and getting better every day now).  So because of that I basically canceled my social life and was at the hospital/with my grandma like every day.  And then I went on vacation to DC/NYC.  And now I'm back and like in over my head with social plans.  Like, I have to be somewhere or whatever like every day this coming week.   Not to mention I'm canceling on one of my friends tomorrow because I need to hang out with some of my other friends as sort of a going-away-thing for a friend that's going to boarding school (I'm going to miss her like hell).  Today I hung out with one of my closest guy friends and we, being the spazzes that we are, watched like two episodes of Drake and Josh, and played the most pitiful game of basketball (PIG) ever.  And then we sunbathed.  And ran away from a garden snake (he RAN I walked very quickly).  Good times....      

Yeahh

I've been told that I need to update my blog, so I am now updating it.  So much has happened since the last time I updated my blog.  I got an iPod video; I'm a week away from finishing my job; I'm making a hardcore Hellboy mask in one of the classes I help out with; I've watched an insane number of chick flicks with guy friends (Legally Blonde, Legally Blonde II, Last Holiday); I've gone to PortCon with two friends; I've gotten addicted to various podcasts; I'm planning for my trip to NYC and DC; I've made new friends at my camp (even though I don't really like the camp at all); I've organized a picnic that was a huge success (14 people and an insane amount of food); I've gotten my belated birthday present from a friend whose original present was stolen by a music and money loving seagull; I've decided that I'm getting my hair cut short-enough-to-spike in the back (and regular bang-length in the front); I've accepted a challenge that involves making a list of 100 recommended books and then reading them; I'm teaching myself Japanese; I'm planning on going to a concert with Staind, Three Doors Down, and Hinder with a good guy friend and maybe one of my girl friends; I've cried at the ending of one book and one movie (I blame it on camp making me emotionally unstable), and so many other things....

Well Then.

So, I'm still sick.  I actually had to stay home from work, because I was coughing rather nastily this morning and was having trouble breathing.  So I spent the lovely day drained of energy, coughing and resting on the couch, while watching whatever good was on TV (mostly just Queer Eye for the Straight Guy re-runs on Bravo).  And this evening I bothered to turn on my computer to talk to people on AIM for a few minutes and check my mail.  Of course, like always, there's the latest drama and such that would usually demand me spending a good deal of time over-analyzing something.  Only, cold meds make my brain foggy, so I as a general rule of thumb avoid saying or doing anything that I might possibly regret while under the influence of the aforementioned meds.  So, the usually swearing and such is out of the question.  I think I will just sit here and decide whether or not I want to go to PortCon all four days, and whether I should humiliate myself by going with three or so equally geeky friends.  One of the new events this year is dance lessons and then a ballroom dance.  It sounds like so much fun, but I'm debating if it's worth the humiliation.  It would be lovely though-- like a masked ball, since most everyone will be in cosplay.  Speaking of which, I don't know who I want to dress up as.  Last year I did the Nana/Misa thing, but I don't know...Call me foolish, but I almost want to choose a scantily clad character (like Misa), as opposed to Haruhi, or one of the cool female characters.  Because, Haruhi and all characters like her wear suits.  And it's summer.  So I'm leaning towards the skanky mini-skirt-wearing Misa, just for the sake of comfort.  I'll ask my friends....

Bad Day

Do you ever have one of those days where you come dangerously close to totally snapping on someone and yell at them and say about a thousand things that you shouldn't say to them?  Has it ever happened with about three people in one day?  Yah well...*holds fingers close together* this close, this close.  Blahh and to top it off I'm still sick.  And now me and all of my friends are moderately mature and we're almost all working and none of our schedules match up.  And when they do match up (like last Wednesday) and I went to the movies with one of my friends I was so out of it from work, when I was buying my ticket I forgot what movie I was going to see. and I had to ask him!  Talk about embarrassing.... 

Bleh. Meh. Sick.

So, it's my first day off and I'm sick.  Yucky.  My throat feels like I swallowed sandpaper in my sleep.  Seriously.  And I have the chills so I have goosebumps and I'm all shivery.  And I babysit for four hours tonight, because I agreed this morning before I was really sick (or rather, before I admitted I was sick).  Grosssss.....

W.T.F.

I just has quite possibly the most awkward conversation on AIM ever.  This guy from the alternative high school in my city added me on Facebook, and sent me a message saying hi and whatever.  An acquaintance of mine from the school vouched for the guy, so when he IMed me I responded and we were having a perfectly cordial conversation...until he asked if I roleplayed.  I said yes, sometimes I did (we were talking about manga at the time, and I assumed he was talking about manga RPing, until he clarified he wasn't).  Essentially, he ended up asking me if I cybered.  Of course, I responded that I didn't (EW...stranger...NO).  And then he asked why and I explained why (hadn't even experienced such activities in real life, I didn't intend to soon, online and not in person=weird, I'm a prude, etc, etc.)  And yeah so he told me more awkward stuff and was like 'good for you you're a virgin-- I'm not', etc, etc.  And I was like 'why are you telling me this you don't even know me'.  And he's like 'you're nice and you're cute'.  And it continued to be awkward until I 'signed off' (I went invisible).  So yes I'm still freaked out and in 'EWW YUCKY' mode.   I am so mad at the acquaintance that said cybering boy was an 'alright guy'.  EW!